Sunday, March 30, 2008?
Feeling very down
After all I am back to JW for service. That mean I cannot serve at my Sunday PlayGrp. The moment I heard KL said that, SHIT came out from my mouth. It really bother me a lot. My emotion is a bit unstable now. Is been 2 yrs ++ now and my students became part of my life. Many people might say you can serve at other services but for personal reason I don't want. I will never have the same joy as the past.
This morning I serve my last service. Saturday night, thank God I saw Joash and Joyce. If not I will not see them again for a very long period of time. I gave my 2 bao bei a very loving hug. Their dad was there. So I spoke to him and he was nice la after all we see and talk to each other every Sunday. This morning I told Cheralynn and Clarice's mummy and both of them were shock. I told Gabriel's maid too. Hai... guys you will never know how I feel inside of me. To make things worst, Erin and Ethan never come today. I assume they were sick ba . Sad lor... Since 930am I am looking outside the door for Erin's arrival. Till 1030am there is no sigh of them. My heart sunk. But it was my last svs, I decided to give my best shot and teach well. I started with my greeting and it was 1 of my best greeting ever. The children's responded me with joy. Then after that I am in charge of my last learning centers. Lastly, I stood outside the room to sent their kids off to their parents. To those kids I am closer with, 1 by 1 I gave them hug. Inside me I was crying. Really crying....
I join PlayGrp in Aug 2006. With nothing in me and ignorant about all things till now Mar 2008 I have all the beautiful memory and the love my kids gave me. I believe I need to move on to a higher level of servant hood. I do not noe yet where God will lead me but I know deep down my heart I will never ever going to forget the time I am in PlayGrp with all the kids. The laughter we had, the conversation we had, the moment of joy we had, the pictures we took together, the tears which I wipe for you and the love we had for each other in my life time I will never forget even I am 90 years old!
Joash, Joyce, Cheralynn, Clarice, Erin and of course my boy Ethan.... Teacher CK will remember you guys and will visit you again whenever I can.
Grace and Peace 6:27 PM