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Friday, February 27, 2009?
For the past 3 days
I keep having some multiple dreams
It was those wield and stupid dreams
In the middle of the night
I will woke up
I don't understand why
It just keep coming
Every night I am afraid to sleep
I pray before I sleep
It is still the same
But
There is a constant in the dream
U
Grace and Peace 11:18 AM
Wednesday, February 25, 2009?
I was dedicating this week and next week to study Ps kong series on Making Marriage work. I happen to have the DVD for all the 14 lessons. Today was lesson 4 for me. The date was 13 August 2006. During the service, there was a baby dedication. I was smiling all along the dedication. Y? because I saw some of my students. There were so small 2 years ago. Haha. I saw Erin, Joyce, Cherlynn, Joshua, Regan, kylie, Eliora, Zheng Jie and a few other more. OMG... I look at them now and 2 years ago I was so touch. I watch them grew up. Erika was still in Susan's womb. Haa. It really melt my heart very much. Haha I also want to go for baby dedication. I mean bring my baby... haha. Amen!! =)This week I feel so much better compare to last week. Everyday I was looking forward to MSN. Haha... herms.... I felt I should restudy the making marriage work bible study. To win a battle I'll need to study and know knowledge. Knowing is not enough of course, I need to put it to use. Practical!!
Grace and Peace 11:01 PM
Sunday, February 22, 2009?
Wa... today was a very tiring day for me. I was so out of breath. But I am super happy! I was ask to serve at a last minute notice. Will be back for service at JW for the next 2 weeks. Will miss my kids dearly but CG member will be my priority in 2009 haha ya u guys never see wrongly. =) Today is the start we put pictures of the teacher who was on duty. Haha the picture below show the different rank. I was all alone in the rank of Teacher. LOL. I was joking that this is machiam like GRC style. Member of Parliament. Haha... Today we were suppose to have a helper from other department to help us. She was a mei mei look cute lol... I was so high up. her iC brought her over. I was determine to make friend le.. intro my kids to her haha. But my dearest IC was on the phone with asst IC... she is being told that Ming wei is coming therefore Joann told the IC to sent the girl back! I was sian 1/2... =( hai... Recently Sunday Playgroup attendance average was 70 kids! More and more young parents coming over. There is a few mummy whom is very pretty. Chio.. lol. At least I have an extra motivation to serve haha. I am so envy of those young parents... I also want to be like them.
I was in charge of greeting today and "Fun time" centers. Greeting was nice haha I pray before hand for interactive with the kids and they did respond. Haha was so happy. Better than the 1st time I did after returning from Paris. That time was so bad. Today was very good. But as for my centers, I vomit blood. Haha... it was like a hell for me. Last night I cut all the footprint while watching soccer. LOL. Today was to ask the kids to listen to the color I call for and then they will step on it. The kids was so excited and then they anyhow walk around. I was shouting at them like a mad dog. Worst is no asst teacher came to help me. Simply we do not have enough. O man... I wonder what the mummy and the maid will think of my centers. It was a disaster. But there was some who follow instruction. Erin and Erika. Haha. Some repeatedly come and walk. Some stick out my footprint! I scream at them. I begin to sweat. Keep on shouting. Haha. But still it was fun...
At first
Then...
Lastly....After service I was like a mad dog again. Service ended at 12pm and Bible study starts at 1pm. We have 1 hour to clear the room. Not forgetting to clean the toys. We all need to pack everything for hall 1. I clean the mat like no tomorrow. I was so tired after that. Dead beat
So messy..
Erin and Erika finally get close with me. Recently we begin to chat and play around. Haha I am so happy.. finally won them to me. They are my sweetie. Of course due to my relationship with Ethan. nevertheless I watch both of them inside the stomach of Susan and then came to this world. Naturally will like them. Ming wei ask Erin and Erika do you like teacher CK? Both of them nod their head hehe...
Erika is always very dramatic than Erin
Cutie =)
LOL... y r u here with us? Who r u?
They enjoy my center.Auntie Joy saw Ming wei taking photo of them and she joke with us saying "take picture of them never get my permission!?" LOL... her expression and tone was so funny. She demand from us $25,ooo LOL.... Anyway Ethan finally told me he likes the shirt I bought from him very much. Haha after the service he told me that. I was so touch lor. He greeted me and then all of a sudden say he likes the shirt I bought. Recently have been busy that why no time to take a picture with him. After service is always very rush... got to update my photo album. I have a new sweetie.. her name is Lara. Will take picture when I serve again.
To sum of my posting today, I share with you something funny. Joyce aka my mei mei has been "cooking" for me this morning non stop. Food ranging from roti prata, fried mee hoon to mushroom soup. Haha I "eat" until very full. I role play with her haha it was so funny. I laugh a lot today with her. She told me.. she is ah ma... lol i was like.. ok?.. then I say me lei? she say i am daddy! LOL.... Many incident la.. u all must experience yourself then is funny. After the service, ming wei took a mob to clean the mat. Then mei mei say 臭 臭. Ming wei ask me come over. Then he ask 誰最臭? Joyce say teacher ming wei... lol... then he pass the mob to me thinking she will say me next. Then we ask again 誰最臭? Joyce replied - Suzhen! LOL... Hahahaha I laugh non stop. It was so sudden out of the blue Joyce say Suzhen, who is standing near us. I was tired with laughter....
Grace and Peace 8:28 PM
Saturday, February 21, 2009?
I am here to write about my confession on a mistake which i made for the past week. Today service was an interview with Dr Kelvin Dyson by Ps Tan. God just woke me up in the spirit all of a sudden. I felt ashamed for all of my action. Before I went for service, I went to PlayGroup room to pass something to my friend. She told me 1 of my member grandma had a fall. Suddenly I have a feeling which I don't seem to be able to describe after so much had happen between me and her. I decided to sms her and was so relief her grandma was ok. At least I can have a peace of mind during service.During the 45mins interview with Dr Dyson, I was being taught a lesson. A lesson which I as a man should learn and thereby behave as 1. My recent behavior is totally unacceptable. God dealt with me seriously... on my way home I was thinking about this posting on how should I write. For the past week, I have been nasty and avoid towards a sister in my CG. It was my pride and some difficulties that is bothering me that cause me to behave that way. I must admit I did not think of her feeling at all. I only think of myself and my own interest.
I believe God sent Dr Dyson to teach me some basic and to wake me up. I am taught 1 very basic truth. I am a Christian. I also dun know why will I behave the way I behave for the past week. Avoiding an issue as thought it will disappear. As a Christian i should pray and seek guidance from God. - I repent from that. Secondly I am taught that both man and woman are equal in the eyes of God. She don't owned me anything. I should not give her the type of treatment I am giving. It was so nasty and out of sense. - I repent from that. Thirdly my word is my bond. I've told her before that no matter what happen I will be with her. We will be the best of friend. And look what i have done to disappoint her. I wrote a letter to her, everything was not according to how I act. My word is not my bond at all! - I repent from that. Fourthly the Bible got to be the empire when there is some argument which has to be resolve. Disagreement and problems was surfacing on us. I with my own thinking and mindset set the tone. It was terrible. I never try to read the Bible to seek for an solution to improve the situation but I add fire on it. I say something that does not mean my heart, I just want to make her feel sad and give up on me. I seek my own self and understanding to solve the problem. - I repent from that.
Lastly... God spoke to me a verse that sum it all.
1 Pet 3:8
7 Husbands(Man), likewise, dwell with them with understanding, giving honor to the wife(Woman), as to the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life, that your prayers may not be hindered.
I told God that was meant for married couple. But God told me for my context change it to liken a relationship between a man and a woman. When things happen I never try to understand her and always insert my opinion 1 first. I never really want to listen to her. All I want to hear was my view. Giving honor and respect of who she is. I never did that too. I was so bossy and difficult to communicate. The verse say giving honor to the wife as to the weaker vessel. That verse spoke to me a lot. A man should lead and minister to the woman not the other way round. I guess I should handle the problem in a more mature way which I know I could.
She is indeed unique. I know she has never give up on me. Like what she told me. We don't know what is the future ahead of us anything can happen as for now we ought to resume back our friendship just like the past. Dr Dyson confirm this. While we wait for Jesus to come back, we should do the work of God and continue living a normal life. While I wait for the future I should live normally and see God's hand work in my life. I felt so happy and relief. God took away a big rock that is hovering upon me that cause me to feel so "xin ku" for the past few days. I could not sleep at all. But I now I know I could.
Grace and Peace 7:36 PM
Wednesday, February 18, 2009?
This week had been a lousy week for me. All I did each day was to stare at the wall. Evening will be running and doing some work out to let my tiredness over Shadow my sorrowful feeling. Been looking at Facebook recently. Added many Pastor. Wonderful to see they are so interactive with us. I had upload some of the random photos I took in Paris. There is 4 albums and do take time to see all the beautiful photos. Will post my London photos most likely next week. Let every 1 digest the Paris photo 1st ba...Grace and Peace 5:09 PM
Monday, February 16, 2009?
I receive 2 letters today. The 1st was good news and 2nd was a bad news. The 1st letter inform of getting my 1st GST offset money - $200. Finally can get government money le. The 2nd letter was from CMPB informing me of my medical report. I am told that my blood test result showed that I am lack of an enzyme called "G6PD". It is an important enzyme in the normal functioning of red blood cells. Certain drugs and some food are able to cause destruction of the red blood cells in G6PD deficient person like me.
I was shock! I was given a list of medical words which I don't understand at all. Those were some kind of drugs. I calculated that a total of 45 drugs I must avoid! WTF. How I know sia. This time round die le la. Meeting Jesus soon... I can't even drugs like Vit C and K!!! They also ask me to avoid Fava beans and Chinese medicines. Hai...
I went for a run just now. I was running very fast. My heart was in pain for a while and i was very tired. I just keep on run and run. The more I think the faster I run. Then in the midst of my tiredness, I came to realise that something. I concede defeat le.. I am tired le...
Grace and Peace 9:13 PM
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Is been 2 mth + I came back from Paris. When I look back it was like a memory to me. In Paris my daily life was not easy. I gone through a lot and I said to myself upon coming home I will change my attitude. But there is 1 area I found I have not change is my attitude towards relationship. It is the same 4 years ago and also the same now. I only know how to avoid. Friends can become foe within a week. People always tell me to let the other person know about my stand. I always refuse to say anything because I know the outcome will bring mystery to me. I rather be friend than to let the other know my feeling. But sometime I just don't have the choice. Last night was the 2nd day in a row I sleep because of my drinking. There was soccer last night, but I was feeling so giddy after drinking and I fell a sleep while the TV was still on. I don't know how to sleep every night without drinking because I know I will think too much and trying to fall a sleep. A week of prayer gone and this is how I end the week. Really disappoint of myself. If my kids in Playgp knows their teacher was such a person then I don't think they will respect and honor me. Ethan will no longer call me Teacher CK. I am a very bad example to all my boys and girls in Playgroup. Everyday I feel I am living a lifeless life. Except with the 2 tutors job that I have. I was at home feeling sad for myself. 6 weeks or so more to SOT, I am thinking what to do for those 6 weeks? Slack till I rot at home. Evening time is when I do my running. I love to run because I believe the more breathless I am, can take away the sorrow that is me. I don't know when is this going to stop. It is killing me. I guess NS is the best time for me to forget about everything. I will be isolated in camp. I believe that is the only way ba. I really don't want to lose a friend. But there is a wall which I need to break down. Right now all I can do is to avoid to make myself feel better. Pastor Kong said before that reality is never a limited of life. For me reality is a big limiter which I am running away from it...
Grace and Peace 1:50 PM
Saturday, February 14, 2009?
Last night went to Upper Thompson for supper. It was a HK cafe serving good food. It urge me to really go HK in June for mission trip cum holiday haha. Really looking forward to it.
Today is Valentine day and I spent it with God. Hee. Everywhere I go today, couples was every where. Pastor Kong continue his series on relationship. I was seated on the FIRST row floor area haha. Seated with all the pretty pretty CGL. Was quite disturb by the camera firming at me haha. Pastor mention the needs of a husband is attractive spouse and recreational companionship. I was shouting AMEN! Woman dun understand y man likes to watch 22 man running after a single ball. Well... my 1st dream is to make sure my GF understands is nt running after a single ball but is beyond that - Passion etc haha. To watch soccer with my loves 1 is a luxury. My 2nd dream I had is when both my wife and I goes to school and pick up out our kids dressing in a very fashionable and trendy clothes. Comparing with those people who wear casually. Then people might think we are the kids bro and sis but in actual fact we are his parents haha. That is what I want to feel in future. Attractive husband and wife.
Pastor then ask all the married couple to exchange their vow. Can you imagine I was seated in the 1st row looking at all of the loving face... saying the vow.. haha it was so funny. I kind of envy them. I saw 1 husband gave a sweet long juicy kiss to his wife just in front of me!! Anyway it was a good Valentine day spent alone in church and I wish all my reader Happy Valentine day. Tomorrow going to date my gals in Playgroup le.. hehe =)
Grace and Peace 7:11 PM
Friday, February 13, 2009?
Valentine's Day or Saint Valentine's Day is a holiday celebrated on February 14 by many people throughout the world. In the West, it is the traditional day on which lovers express their love for each other by sending Valentine's cards and presenting flower. The day was a pagan festival of love, which was taken over by the Church that disapproved of its romantic and sexual connotations, renamed for "Saint Valentine" and made into a day for martyrs.Haha... it will be my 21st Valentine day. I use to celebrate alone but after I came to know Christ, I celebrate with Him for the past 6 years. This year was no surprise. Tomorrow I am going for service and then most likely be heading back home ba. There was planning for a CG outing but because of some circumstances, I decided to see 1st.. mostly be a No ba. Year 2009 is a bit different. To be honest I have already prepare a gift. It is not very expensive. I don't know what will be the outcome but 1 thing I know it will never be the same again....
Grace and Peace 11:57 AM
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Is been 5 days of non stop morning prayer
My soul indeed refresh
My soul indeed refresh
To wake up at 445am and catch the 1st train wasn't easy
But the motivation of meeting God kept me going
I really believe there will be ticks coming into my prayer book
Grace and Peace 10:28 AM
Thursday, February 12, 2009?
Now is 645am. I should be at HOG for my morning prayer meeting. But I overslept. Yesterday was WC, today was my turn. I was suppose to meet someone and go together maybe I am too excited or simply I am too tired after a long swim with Ben in the afternoon. Thx God for Evening prayer meeting. I am going b4 CG. Tml got to wake up and pray in my last morning prayer for this month.
Grace and Peace 6:48 AM
Monday, February 9, 2009?
The last time I went for a vertical Marathon was 2007 SwissHotel vertical marathon challenge. Yesterday I went for the Singapore tallest building at 280metre high!! I am proud to say I have conquer them all! Hehe. Below are 3 photos and I think you can view the rest in the Facebook which Ben had tag me already.
The Republic Plaza
Waiting time
Damn tired. After my finish got to wait for Ben to come up more tired haha.But.. I still want to challenge myself but this time round is lover challenge. I feel it will be very challenging for me. Because to hold hand all the way up is not an easy task. Hopefully 2010 will be the year my dream will be fulfil.
Grace and Peace 10:36 AM
Sunday, February 8, 2009?
I am so tired
Morning woke up at 5am
Meet Ben at 6am to go for our Vertical Marathon
Waited for 2 hour then were our turn to climb
I did a 13mins++ for the 60 storey
In general 1 storey in HDB is about 16 steps
In the Republic plaza it was about 24 steps!!!
No wonder I felt so tired after 10 storey
Will post the pictures when Ben sent it to me
Hmmm
Service was good
His needs, Her needs
This past 2 days, I did something
The feeling wasn't good
But...
I have no choice =(
If she do notice and feel it
Hope she will forgive me
Grace and Peace 4:59 PM
Thursday, February 5, 2009?
rThanks to Ming Wei who took this cutie last Sunday and sent me. My mei mei (Joyce) look so cute. Haha. So innocent. =)
Just now I went for my tutor work at Jurong Primary School. I was in charge of over 10 P6 students. They are a special kids of students. Most of them not because their study are not good but because of their family background. I am there not only as a tutor but also a friend to them. My 1st lesson was quite meaningful. Really thank God for giving me this job to have money to pay for my SOT and also through me, they can draw more closer to God.8 Symptoms of backslides
- Growing cold toward the things of God
- Giving up the life of faith
- Losing sight of eternity
- Becoming self-centered and worldly
- Being overtaken by the cares of life
- Being hypersensitive and easily offended
- Being reactive and critical
- Surrendering to some besetting sin(s)
The meaning of backsliding I believe is "To slide back to the original position where you don't have God." Remember nobody backslide overnight. They usually backslide gradually. Maybe coming for CG and SVS 3 times a week then slowly reduce their attendance. If any one of you know a friend or even you yourself have 2 or 3 such symptoms, do seek advice from your leader.
2 possible manifestation of a backslides.
1. Totally indifferent
2. Always complain
Grace and Peace 8:49 PM
Tuesday, February 3, 2009?
Just heard a very sad story. Like Daphne sayANYTHING can happen ANYWHERE at ANYTIME. It taught me a lesson also ba.
Anyway just want to post some pictures I took during my Playgroup gathering at my Spiritual Mum's house. She just move in not long ago. Now I enjoying seeing new renovate flat so as to get some ideas for my future flat. Finger cross in 7-8 yrs time!
I ate the "FA" Cup cake> =)
Guess everyone know which is my hand.
YUMMY!!
He is Manfred. He is my Grandpa brother de grandson. I think so. Haha meet him only once a year which is during 1st year of CNY. Grow up boy.I think 3 weeks ago, Ben drove his "Lambo" with me to Chomp Chomp for late night supper. Just saw this unpost picture inside my HP. Haha so just post for everybody to see. -) 
Grace and Peace 5:15 PM
Sunday, February 1, 2009?
By right Sg Flyer should be the largest observation wheel in the world. But when I went to London Eye, they seem could accept the fact we have overtake them. Haha many people board the London Eye. 1 thing is the scenery around London Eye was beautiful. You may refer to my previous post on my trip to London Eye.I am thinking to go to Sg Flyer during Val time day. Although I have no GF but i feel it will be nice to be up there on such a romantic day. I just check the website and it put 9 great reasons to visit Singapore's most iconic attraction – Singapore Flyer
It’s the world’s largest observation wheel.
Standing at stunning 165m, the Flyer is the height of a 42-storey building – that’s some 30 metres taller than the famed London Eye. Taking a flight on this S$240 million dollar wheel is a one-of-a-kind experience you wouldn’t want to miss.
It’s the only place to see Singapore’s magnificent cityscape.
As the wheel turns, you’ll be treated to a visual 360° feast of iconic and historical landmarks and views from the Marina Bay to the Singapore River, Raffles Place, Merlion Park, Empress Place and the Padang. There is no other place in Singapore that offers these breathtaking, panoramic views.
You’ll get to feast on famous local dishes.
Seafood Paradise @ Flyer, a popular restaurant among locals, serves up signature local dishes such as chilli crab, butter crab, cereal prawns and drunken prawns. Enjoy these authentic local dishes alongside innovative culinary creations by our local chefs.
You’ll get a taste of our gourmet capital.
If local food isn’t the fare for you, dine at any of the restaurants at the Flyer. The selection – from Indian fusion to Japanese delicacies and Italian epicurean – gives you a taste of why Singapore is the gourmet capital of Asia.
You’ll get to indulge in Singapore’s national pastime.
Food may be our nation’s passion, but it’s shopping that’s our national pastime. At the Flyer, you’ll be able to indulge a little in yourself. Jewellery, luxury watches, exquisitely handmade Japanese accessories and more await the avid shopper.
You’ll experience urban nature.
Right in the centre of the atrium is a lush, tropical rainforest. The cascading water displays, streams, rocky outcrops and pond fuse together naturally to offer a picturesque landscape for photo taking.
You’ll be able to fly – “for real”.
If being 165m above ground level in a capsule exhilarates you, fly like a real pilot in a flight simulator that has all the gadgets and gizmos found in real commercial airliners. The simulator isn't a toy, it's been approved by the New Zealand Civil Aviation Authority for pilot training.
Your toes will be tickled by fishes.
On Level 2 is a fish foot spa - that’s right – it’s a spa where Doctor Fishes (“Garra Rufa”) work their magic on your feet. These fish, imported from Turkey, have healing properties and will give you a pedicure you won’t forget.
Your kids will have splashing wet fun.
Rest in the shade of the Greek Theatre located next to Singapore Flyer while your children frolic about our interactive water fountain. They'll have a blast with dancing water jets, shooting water cannons and water sprays at our cheery and colourful aqua playground.
Grace and Peace 11:53 PM