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Monday, December 31, 2007?
I know tonight i cannot have my last quiet time for 2007. So I had it last night, in the wee hours. It was an awesome time with God!! I pray for many things and I praise and worship Him. I linger in His presence and there was fullnest of joy.

I thought to have a 1 hr or so quiet time and never look at the time as I just pray through it. Encounter with God and touch by the Holy Spirit. Never did I expect I spend about 2hr 40mins in the presence of God! Praying and confessing and seeking Him. WOW!!! I am proud of myself. Indeed it is not how much you pray but the presence of God that you are in.

God of my forever. I follow Jesus all the days of my life. Thank You Jesus :p

Tonight will be going to eat in Marina Bay and to countdown! Yeah.... hope there is a few moment that will be unforgetable in my life haha. Hope to take some picture with my friends and may God is in the midst of us.

Just want to take this chance to thank all my reader and wishing you all a happy new year!!

Grace and Peace 10:00 AM


Sunday, December 30, 2007?
COME ON MARIA!!! COME ON MARIA!!! GO MARIA!!!

I was shouting when Maria Sharapova was serving the ball or receving the ball. She stand 188cm. A world class sports perosnality and a Chio Bu. She has the beauty man. I love Maria!!! Thanks to wade, I can watch my 1st ever live tennis match! It was awesome. Even thought it was a friendly match, but both player played a world class match


The princess of Tennis Maria Sharapova won the match 6-0, 7-6. I saw her within distance when she about to enter back to the back room! OMG She is simply chio.

Grace and Peace 11:52 PM


Saturday, December 29, 2007?
Change is the way for growth! Not only in church or business but also relationship. Pastor Tan preached the year end sermon that I feel wanting us to change ourself for the new year.

Finally my CG got some 1 to beautify the atomsphere LOL.... There is so many new friends that I dun noe.. hai.. got to make friend with them le.

New year is coming and so far there is no plan on how to celebrate it. Of course my ideal way is not possible so got to go with a group of people. Last year was rather wierd. I went with some xiao mei mei n di di. Haha. Hope dis yr will be a memorable 1.

I vow to I will take as many pictures as I can with my kids. I want to do a album or the customise frame that can have many pic on it. That will be fun. But I will risk of being scolded... hai

Tomorrow I will be fasting from 7am to 7pm and then 9pm to 9am. Please pray for me as I will be having a long "prayer time" tomorrow. As I had mention, I got 4 pages of prayer list! I will pray for 2008 and also the work i did in 2007 to continue even better. About 1am onwards if you guys have nt slp yet, please interceed for me also during your prayer time. Thanks :p

you rocks :))

Grace and Peace 11:16 PM


Thursday, December 27, 2007?
It was so lame lor! But was also fierce in the battle scene. Warlords indeed make a sacrifice by paying US$12 Million to Jet Li. Those who love history will like the show ba. For me the cross and the 5 bread 2 pig was damn funny. It was suppose to be 5 loaves and 2 fish. Haha now Christianity enter into the movie world. jesus had becomes their cast.

All de best to Chee loong who leave for the States in about 8 hours time. May God's presence with you always wherever you goes. God bless you. Hope to see you real soon and take care of yourself.

Is my habit to pray for many things b4 the year end. I just finish typing out my 4 pages of prayer list! I am gonna have a mini prayer meeting inside my room. I was thinking of having on de 30 December but after I drafted the prayer list, I wanted ASAP. Perhaps 27 0r 28 Dec ba. Please pray for me if you read this post and if possible get from me a simply 1 page prayer list so that you can interceed for me. Thanks :p

Grace and Peace 1:31 AM


Wednesday, December 26, 2007?
The following news was discovered when I watch CNN news. It was an interesting event and the fact of it will decide by you. You can choose to believe it or not. Enjoy!

Isaiah 35:8 (New King James Version)
8 A highway shall be there, and a road, And it shall be called the Highway of Holiness. The unclean shall not pass over it




Grace and Peace 2:45 PM


Tuesday, December 25, 2007?
The service was packed!! Amen. All our prayer meeting did not wasted. 2 more services to go I know it will go form glory to glory and strength to strength. The candle light was awesome. Indeed the darkness will never win over the glory(light) of God. Pastor Kong preached a sermon that is on Chirstmas but quite different from the past few years. Enjoy the evening service with my friends and relative. Yea :p




HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!!! I love You :))

Grace and Peace 1:11 AM


Sunday, December 23, 2007?
Back from Malaysia. This morning went to serve in children church. I was feeling tired and drowzy but I felt strength and power. God is faithful. people might think I am crazy to serve less than 12 hour after reaching home but I know Godwill take care of me as I serve Him. Amen, I never regret coming cuz I have a enjoyable morning. Amanda also just touch down from Thailand last night and she came to serve too! This is what I call focusing on our purpose.

The journey to Malayisa was rather OK cuz the expressway was straight all de way. I have some interesting incident that I experience and saw. Ask me when you all see me oK?? Haha. I shall stop toking and allow my reader to enjoy some of the photo I took.

My hotel.

The best 4 stars hotel in KL!

Mini indoor theme park
It is crazy to have a ride up there

Play 2 games with my dad. 1st game draw 118 pins to 118 pins. 2nd game kana trash by him. 86 pins to 126 pins. hai.... old bird always win lol

This is not New York
KL time square. A very big shopping mall. I met an interesting malaysian who came to talk to me abt some stuff while I am browzing books inside Borders. Eventually kana shoot by me. Hai.... Amen!
Leg was so pain.....
Cool ar??
KL tower
Christmas!!

PlanetHollywood (KL)
HardRock Cafe (KL)
Zouk!! LOL.....
WOW......
WOW! WOW!!
WOW!! WOW!! WOW!!!!!
I watch a documentry which show how the petronas tower is built. Actually the 2 towers are not in equal height. 1 of the tower is slightly higher. The tower is being build by 2 different contractors. While building, both of them are completing with each other on how high they have build. Haha so funny de. The tower was once the highest in the world but now was being replace by Tapei 101.

It is no camara trick. haha I took together with the tower.

Grace and Peace 8:16 PM


Thursday, December 20, 2007?
Why people don't believe in Jesus (part 3)

Actually the main evidence of Jesus is God is the resurrection. If Jesus never raises from the dead, then everything is fake. The bible did clearly record the event of how Jesus was raised. There is witness during the events.


The Great Exchange on the Cross

There are eight distinct aspects to this exchange. This means there are eight different ways Jesus took the evil that was due to us, that we might receive the good that was due to Him.

1. Jesus received the punishment due to our sinful act that we might have peace, forgiveness and reconciliation
2. Jesus bore in His own body our sicknesses and pain that we might have physical healing
3. Jesus was made sin with our sinfulness that we might be made righteous with His righteousness
4. Jesus was made sick with our sickness that we might be made whole with His health
5. Jesus received the curse due to us for breaking God’s law, that we might received the blessing due to Christ’s obedience
6. Jesus was made poor with our poverty that we might be rich with His wealth
7. Jesus tasted death fully so that we might have life in all 3 phases (Spiritually, physically and eternal)
8. Jesus executed the rebellious nature of the “Old man” so that, in its place, the “new man” might now live in the believer

All the 8 exchange was made when Jesus died on the cross.

Jesus also promises about His 2nd coming. But that will be too much for most people to absorb so I will not share much because it will definitely freak you out.


In conclusion I would like to share something that is from the bottom of my heart.

- There is a God in heaven. Just 1 God. God the father (Jehovah), God the son (Jesus), God the Holy Spirit. Is not 3 gods but 1 truth God. Jesus loves us so much that he died for our sin. We lost our relationship with God when Adam sin in Eden but Jesus came to give us the greatest miracle that we will receive in our life. How to become a Christian? We just need to admit that we are a sinner and need to be repent, believe in our hearts that Jesus died to pay for our sins and he is alive today and confess Jesus as our Lord and savior. I did that 4 years ago. But my life did not change immediately. It takes a period of time to learn and change as I grow in the Lord. Just like a baby to a kid to teen to youth adult to adult. We need to be planted to a church. The Christian life is never static or boring. It is a very exciting and supernatural journey. Christianity basically is not a religion. It is a relationship to our “Daddy” God. We need to know Him more by reading the bible and pray everyday. Praying is just talking to God. There will be so many things we need to know so our life in God needs to be progressive. Friends allow be to be your friend for once if you do not have Jesus in your heart, are you willing to give Him and yourself a chance? I promise you, you will never be regretted. I pray that during this Christmas, your life will change and never be the same again.


Grace and Peace 1:01 AM


Wednesday, December 19, 2007?
Why people don't believe in Jesus (part 2)

The life and ministry of Jesus

About 2000 years ago a man named Jesus was born in the town of Bethlehem in the land of Israel. He was unique. He was fully God and yet fully human. God allowed himself to be born as a man so that he could live and suffer among us, to serve as the perfect atonement for sin, and to offer salvation to anyone who believes.His birth, mission, death and resurrection were foretold by the prophets of the Old Testament of the Bible and revealed to us in the New Testament.He lived among his fellow Jews during a time when the boundaries of the Roman Empire included the land of Israel. He preached and performed miracles for three-and-a-half years until he was crucified by the Romans. He died on a wooden cross and was buried in a tomb.But his life did not end in death. Jesus Christ was resurrected. And because he was perfect, he is able to open the doors to the Kingdom of God. And because he was sinless, he is able to forgive us our sins so that we too can be accepted into the Kingdom of God.Jesus explains this in a passage of the Bible called John 3:16 when he said: "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."

There are about 34 miracles performed by Jesus recorded in the 4 gospel

1. Changing water into wine (John 2:1-11)
2. Healing of the royal official's son (John 4:46-54)
3. Healing of the Capernaum demoniac (Mark 1:21-28, Luke 4:33-37)
4. Healing of Peter's mother-in-law (Matthew 8:14-15, Mark 1:29-31, Luke 4:38-39)
5. Catching a large number of fish (Luke 5:3-10)
6. Healing a leper (Matthew 8:1-3, Mark 1:40-42)
7. Healing a centurion's servant (Matthew 8:5-13, Luke 7:1-10)
8. Healing a paralytic (Matthew 9:1-8, Mark 2:1-12, Luke 5:18-26)
9. Healing a withered hand (Matthew 12:9-14, Mark 3:1-6)
10. Raising a widow's son (Luke 7:11-17)
11. Calming the stormy sea (Matthew 8:23-27, Mark 4:35-41, Luke 8:22-25)
12. Healing the Gerasene demoniac (Matthew 8:28-32, Mark 5:1-13, Luke 8 26-33)
13. Healing a woman with internal bleeding (Matthew 9:20-22, Mark 5:25-34, Luke 8:43-48)
14. Raising Jairus' daughter (Matthew 9:18-19, 23-25; Mark 5:22-24, 35-43; Luke 8:41-42, 49-56)
15. Healing two blind men (Matthew 9:27-31)
16. Healing a mute demoniac (Matthew 9:32-33)
17. Healing a 38 year invalid (John 5:5-17)
18. Feeding 5000 men and their families (Matthew 14:16-21, Mark 6:35-44, Luke 9:12-17, John 6:5-14)
19. Walking on water (Matthew 14:22-33, Mark 6:45-52, John 6:16-21)
20. Healing a demoniac girl (Matthew 15:21-28, Mark 7:24-30)
21. Healing a deaf man with a speech impediment (Mark 7:31-37)
22. Feeding the 4000 men and their families (Matthew 15:29-39, Mark 8:1-10)
23. Healing a blind man (Mark 8:22-26)
24. Healing a man born blind (John 9:1-41)
25. Healing a demoniac boy (Matthew 17:14-21, Mark 9:17-29, Luke 9:37-43)
26. Catching a fish with a coin in its mouth (Matthew 17:24-27)
27. Healing a blind and mute demoniac (Matthew 12:22, Luke 11:14)
28. Healing a woman with an 18 year infirmity (Luke 13:10-13)
29. Healing a man with dropsy (Luke 14:1-6)
30. Healing 10 lepers (Luke 17:11-19)
31. Raising of Lazarus (John 11:1-44)
32. Healing Bartimaeus of blindness (Mark 10:46-52)
33. Restoring a severed ear (Luke 22:45-54)
34. Catching a great number of fish (John 21:4-11)

During Jesus 3 ½ years of ministry, He teach (The parables), fellowship, heals, help the poor and minister to people. The bible clearly recorded every important word that He said. He performed 34 miracles! He can do that because He is God. But still until today there is still millions of people around the world don’t believe in Jesus. Ok then… just imagine Jesus is not God. That means all the works that He did in the bible and the words He said is fake.

If that is the case then Jesus will be either a...
1. Lunatic (Siao kia)
2. Big fat liar

If he is a lunatic…

A lunatic is a commonly used term for a person who is mentally ill, dangerous, foolish or unpredictable, a condition once called lunacy.

· Lunatic will not say something that allow people think and study until today! You go to mental hospital today; do you believe every word that the patient said? I doubt so

· Based on the definition of lunatic, will people become a follower of one who is mentally ill, dangerous, foolish and unpredictable?

· Whenever Jesus goes, there will be a great multitude following Him. There is a person in the bible who wants to see Jesus. But he was so short among the crown so he climbs up all the way to the top of the trees to just have a look at Jesus. Will you do that to the extend to see a lunatic?

· Lastly if Jesus was a lunatic, will the Roman kill Him? Will the scribes and Pharisees debate with a lunatic person? Will people wanting to just touch His clothes to get healing? Or will a lunatic fast for 40 days?

I mean the decision is yours whether to believe or not

But what if Jesus is not a lunatic then He must be the greatest liar ever live on earth!

A liar is simply meaning a person who tells lies.

Here are some examples

- There will be no Christmas and Easter day
- Sermon on the mount is just some bed time story
- All the parables are fairy tales
- Jesus cheated the trust of all His disciple
- All the healing and miracle are magic. We know that all magic are illusion (Jesus are the ancient David Copperfield and Criss Angel)
- All the prophecies are rubbish. Jesus make it up his own
- Jesus not only a liar in His word but also cheat people of money.
- Jesus then will be a flaky person

The list just goes on and on if Jesus really is a liar. But do you think He is a liar? Will a liar died for something that is not truth? Jesus would not go to the cross and died for something he did not committed if He is a liar. When He is capture by the Roman soldiers, He can just confess that everything He did was a lie but He did not. He went on to the Cross to die for us. So you can judge for yourself.

Let’s imagine again. If He is neither a lunatic nor a liar then whatever thing He said, did and promised were all real! Then He is really the one and only true God!

Last part to be continue....


Grace and Peace 12:54 AM


Monday, December 17, 2007?
Why people don't believe in Jesus - Part 1

As Christmas is coming, I would like to share something that God had place in my heart for some time. Christmas is often an annual holiday celebrated by all walks of life around the world. Christmas festivities often combine the commemoration of Jesus' birth with various secular customs, many of which have been influenced by earlier winter festivals. The date of the celebration is traditional and in most places around the world, Christmas Day is celebrated on December 25. Christmas Eve is the preceding day, December 24. But the date is not considered to be Jesus actual date of birth. The bible did not give us the actual date. My view is that let not behave in a legalistic way. 25th December is Jesus’ birthday. Amen.

Often Christmas people all around the world will buy gifts to exchange with one another. It is a season of celebrating and having fun. Christmas to me is indeed a time of love with one another but most importantly is to remember the significant of the birth of Jesus. During Christmas, people heart will normally be more open. So it is a time of harvest for souls. To many people Christmas is just holiday a time of play and do not care what is the meaning behind Christmas.


So why people don’t believe in Jesus?

Through out all my study and reading about religion and God, I discover that only Christianity is the 1 and only true faith. I know this sentence is very offending to many people especially Muslim friends. But there is nothing apart from the true. All religion and their gods are good but guys lets be real! There can be only 1 God who created this earth and the entire universe.... lol lets dun get into Apologetic that is another topic. I am not here to condemn any religion but to blog how I feel.

Jesus came from Nazareth a town which is poor and small compare to many big town which is rich. During that time when Jesus was in ministry, there is people which was His follower but still many people does not believe in Him. They worship other god. This happen through the history of mankind. People always think that unless you came from a rich family or big cities, they will not believe in you. If a poor man came to tell you the truth and a rich man tell you a lie which one will you believe? I think the answer is simple.

Most evolution scientist or world renowned professors don't believe in Jesus. To many people, science is the answer for everything. From what I know this people often challenge the bible and Christianity about the creation. I never hear this people challenge and question with other major religion like "B", "H", "T" etc. This show sonething. Even the scientist don't believe in other religion except Christianity. Honestly you can check for yourself, only the bible gave a most detail about the start and end of this world. I like what Lee Strobel says "My road to Atheism was paved by science.... but ironically, so was my later journey to God." It is so true just like myself.

2 kinds of people in this world that don’t believe in Jesus.

- Agnostic – Free thinkers
- Atheist – Strongly believe God does not exist

Agnostic people just need a little bit of encouragement and love for them to accept Jesus. As for Atheist, it need time. Which one are you belong to? lol

Why they don’t believe in Jesus (Why people are atheist)
1. Pride
2. Bitterness
3. Moral impurity
4. Ignorance

To be continue.....

Grace and Peace 11:03 PM


Friday, December 14, 2007?
There is babes around wearing sexy clothes. Ang mo passer by me in groups. The atomsphere was just like the time I was in Las Vagas. The security in MOS was tight and strict. They were the man in black. After last night then I know why MOS can earn profits in their 1 month of opening!!

I was in the lobby and my mood build up fast. It was smoky and the sound slowly emerge as I walk further in. I experience my 1st clubbing and it was so shiok man.... It took me courage to go up to the dance floor and dance man. If you see me, you will not regonise it was me dancing! Teacher ck dancing and drinking lol.....
Trust me this bottle don't come cheap at MOS!
4 more of the above drinks, will bring me to me dranken state.

It was a night of babes, excitement and drinking. I enjoy myself and discover there is more in the life that I am having now. Haha. Will not rule out going MOS again but I will visit Zouk and is during LADIES NIGHT! Hehe... more babes :P

Grace and Peace 12:21 PM


Thursday, December 13, 2007?
Yahoooooooo Christmas here I comeeeeeeeeee. Finally common test had over and I am back to my slacker mood. Not forgetting the festival celebration mood...

Tonight Zouk... gonna enjoy myself hehe....

Grace and Peace 2:34 PM


Monday, December 10, 2007?
Wow... my blog hit 50 post already!! I was not interested in blog at all but now blogging is my all time fav past time. Thanks for all the support and I will do even better to entertain you guys..... :p

My 1st paper, maths, hai.... was almost gone case la. I felt I am very slack in this common test. Dun noe why doon't have the mood to study arhhh.... tml E com hai worst... haven touch any qns yet. Anyway I will really study hard from now on... (less than a day to my paper) cuz after my common test is PARTY TIME. Woo

Today going to school I saw a very cute little sweet chio bu!!! Can you imagine that?? Cute + Chio = Perfect LOL.... She was indeed my cup of tea man. Small in size and sweet. Hope she is a Christian Whahahaha..... but too bad I get to look at her too late le. Just before I align at YCK then I saw her standing. Haiya... should not be Sms thru out the journey. Sh*t!! She was wearing a black color tank top and pants. O man.... chio sia..... She left me with nothing but memory..... LOL :p

Grace and Peace 9:46 PM


Friday, December 7, 2007?
Mr Fourier.... may I noe who are u?? R u that bored to invented a set of stupid formula. It kills brain cell might you. I haven been study for the past 2 months until now. Hai is so sian sitting inside the library for 4hours. Look at my paper... messy right?? Monday 430pm is my maths paper.. plsss pray for me thx :p Btw it is call fourier series and fourier transform. These 2 topics occupy 3 qns of the paper and 60marks for the paper! Can you imagine that??


Recovered from my post marathon condition. It tooks about 2 days. I ate a lot and drink a lot too. My body kind of easily resume back to its funtion. So haha happy lor... my leg becomes stronger. Today went to drive again. Nearly hit a van. Hai... haha. Hope to master all the skills ASAP. Things are going fine and with more practice I think I can drive well. Hehe. Praise the Lord :p

Grace and Peace 10:41 PM


Tuesday, December 4, 2007?
1st and formost I am disappointed for 2 things in this year marathon. 1st is that with my effort to ask people down to support us but none came down and few others incident happen. 2nd is that my plan was backfired. I had a good start towards East Coast park. My condition was good and I was running at a pace that can enable me to finish about 5 hr. But at the 23Km mark onward.... it all went wrong really WRONG!!! I rush through the morning by having my bag to deposit and going to the washroom. Not forgetting looking for Brian and company. I had a minimum time to do my warm up and I just run like that WTH!! I admit that this year I did not train as hard as last year but after a time of expereince I have faith in this year run.

What went wrong???
The hot weather and my mental. Last year it was cooling as there is some rain but this year it was very VERY hot. I underestimate the weather. Got to blame myself for not training under a hot sun. And come my mental. Through out the 2nd part of the race which really taken my life away, I kept have the mentally of slowing down. I became weak and have signal to vomit. Not forgetting all the negative news that is dominating in recent months kept sinking into my mind. I became small on the inside and become very catious and started to walk. Eventually from the 30Km mark I only manage to jog for about 30%. I run all the way from 40Km to the finishing line. (Vomit after crossing the line) Hai....

Many things that I can say through out the race if you want to know when we meet then ask me lor.... there will be no picture to post as I am pissed off with something. Not too sure whether next year will I be taking part will see how ba. :(

Not forgetting to thank God for His strength and motivation. Those who sent me greeting and giving me moral support.

Those who nv come down should repent la. If next year by the grace of God I can drive down, then we will see whether any people will be going down.

Grace and Peace 10:10 PM


Saturday, December 1, 2007?
1 December 2003 my friend brought me to church. Never did I know that trip to CHC will change my life forever. It was a mini concert by Sun and a preaching by Kong Hee. That time I dun even know who is Kong Hee haha. The building was like a shopping center. I was so shy when meeting people. I always keep to myself. Thinking back to the past, is 4 years already!! As I have said many time b4, life has not been easy since becoming a Christian. But God pull be through....

I have been mocked at by friend, laugh at and even criticise for becoming a christian. For the first few months, I have to lie to my mum that I go to friend house or shopping mall. But by the grace of God, both my parents are open and they accept who I am as the months goes by. Now they have totally nthing against me being a believer. Praise the Lord. I have up and down through out the 4 years. It is a very difficult period of time for me. But some how I remain in church. My lifestyle changed. My thinking and mindset changed. So much things had happen and thus far I have went till today. O man words cannot describe how I feel for the past 4 years....

How I met God??
For the 1st year in church, I don't really commit myself to Him. I was like happy go lucky and be a sunday christian. Perhaps my strong interest in history and the study of religion topic attract my attention to go for bible study. Apart from pastor, all the things I learn myself. I always been a independence person. I buy books and read and study and research. I bought sermon CDs to listen and even surf the internet to know more foreign pastor around the world. I came to know my 2nd pastor, Joyce Meyer. Her teaching and her show really help me a lot. I suffered from low self esteem when growing up. I am not a smart person nor have any great talent and ability. I am not a good looking guy at all. I am dull and boring. I use to have a mushroom hairstyle. I have no confidance in things that I do. Very few good friends. Till now, yes i have many friends but I dun really have a true friend. I know I have a foul mouth who always talk something that offence people. No 1 is perfect, God make me who I am and I got to accept it. With so many thing, I have never been popular in school and among friends. As always I will be the first few people to be make fun of. They are having fun and laughter in expense of my misery. Outside of me I remain strong but deep in only God know what happen. I felt so sad and lousy. I don't like the feeling of being look down by other people. Almost all of my friends "see people" de. Even in the Cell Group, they "see people" Those who perhaps are smarter with the X factor or even better attitude and character were being used to do things for God. I know what I am saying. I never been a plan A for everything. I am always be a last plan or choice. Maybe you will say is yourself to blame and you got to change la if you have some fault. The problem is I change a lot through out this 4 years. But still sometime I will have this "feeling" which I cannot describe. I felt so lost and left out in CG. In G force also, I felt so left out. Some of them don"t even like me. They dispite me. Talk behind my back. There is some days I was living in darkness. Wonder why I always alone?? I always shop alone in malls or go church alone. going home alone also. There is so many things I am alone. It is because, is better to be alone than to be with my friends. I really felt that sometime. People does not appriciate my effort. I always wanted to proof many things to all of my friends and those who look down on me. I thank God that I can run. At least running a marathon build my self esteem up. My studies hasn't been very good also. Primary school to Poly (now), is all been average. No matter how hard I try I am still an average students. People condemn me for poor results. Apart from all the things happening, God is always there. I know to some people that sound so "siao" but there is a God. Even a proud person like me, will humble myself and worship Him. Can you imagine Reyes crying?? In God's presence, I cry. I felt His love and peace. He is talking to me everyday. I don't know when and how I will be without Him.

There so much that I can say. I can write a book on my history. Right now I become better. I love myself and building myself up to become a successful person in future. People might burst my dream, my I am determine. People might not think I will make it, but nvm I live for myself and God. Life must have friends around. Be honest, I need friends to be with. Yes some of my friend, no matter how hard I try to good to them but they still let me down. Raise their voice at me and even slander me. I have my church friend and outside friend which consist of G force, Ex pri and sec school , Poly friends and also some "Hi, BYE" friends. Out of so many, I don't even have a true friends. That is so sad which mean there is something wrong at me. I remember some people ask me how many ex GF i had? I am so sad that I have none. Because I am ugly and have no money that what I told them. Thank God for children church, the kids gave my life something more than just leaving through it.

Lastly, I dress well right now to look better on the outside to boost my confidance and also cover the ugliness in me. I have so many plan and ideas for my future. Dreams and vision never failed to invade me daily. Thank God for the wonderful 4 years and looking forward to next year. A year of excitment and beautiful memory.... :p

Grace and Peace 12:06 AM