<meta name='google-adsense-platform-account' content='ca-host-pub-1556223355139109'/> <meta name='google-adsense-platform-domain' content='blogspot.com'/> <!-- --><style type="text/css">@import url(https://www.blogger.com/static/v1/v-css/navbar/3334278262-classic.css); div.b-mobile {display:none;} </style> </head><body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar.g?targetBlogID\x3d7062971610292002173\x26blogName\x3dReyes:))\x26publishMode\x3dPUBLISH_MODE_BLOGSPOT\x26navbarType\x3dBLUE\x26layoutType\x3dCLASSIC\x26searchRoot\x3dhttps://theculturalmandate.blogspot.com/search\x26blogLocale\x3den_US\x26v\x3d2\x26homepageUrl\x3dhttp://theculturalmandate.blogspot.com/\x26vt\x3d7592138977968126229', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe", messageHandlersFilter: gapi.iframes.CROSS_ORIGIN_IFRAMES_FILTER, messageHandlers: { 'blogger-ping': function() {} } }); } }); </script>







Memories Biography Escapes Archives




Bonjour

Reyes Leow's Profile
Reyes Leow's Facebook profile
CITY HARVEST CHURCH
NANYANG POLYTECHNIC
SCHOOL OF THEOLOGY 2009





Books I'm Reading


Photobucket
Photobucket
Photobucket
Photobucket




Monday, February 16, 2009?
Is been 2 mth + I came back from Paris. When I look back it was like a memory to me. In Paris my daily life was not easy. I gone through a lot and I said to myself upon coming home I will change my attitude. But there is 1 area I found I have not change is my attitude towards relationship. It is the same 4 years ago and also the same now. I only know how to avoid. Friends can become foe within a week. People always tell me to let the other person know about my stand. I always refuse to say anything because I know the outcome will bring mystery to me. I rather be friend than to let the other know my feeling. But sometime I just don't have the choice. Last night was the 2nd day in a row I sleep because of my drinking. There was soccer last night, but I was feeling so giddy after drinking and I fell a sleep while the TV was still on. I don't know how to sleep every night without drinking because I know I will think too much and trying to fall a sleep.

A week of prayer gone and this is how I end the week. Really disappoint of myself. If my kids in Playgp knows their teacher was such a person then I don't think they will respect and honor me. Ethan will no longer call me Teacher CK. I am a very bad example to all my boys and girls in Playgroup. Everyday I feel I am living a lifeless life. Except with the 2 tutors job that I have. I was at home feeling sad for myself. 6 weeks or so more to SOT, I am thinking what to do for those 6 weeks? Slack till I rot at home. Evening time is when I do my running. I love to run because I believe the more breathless I am, can take away the sorrow that is me. I don't know when is this going to stop. It is killing me. I guess NS is the best time for me to forget about everything. I will be isolated in camp. I believe that is the only way ba. I really don't want to lose a friend. But there is a wall which I need to break down. Right now all I can do is to avoid to make myself feel better. Pastor Kong said before that reality is never a limited of life. For me reality is a big limiter which I am running away from it...

Grace and Peace 1:50 PM