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Saturday, February 21, 2009?
I am here to write about my confession on a mistake which i made for the past week. Today service was an interview with Dr Kelvin Dyson by Ps Tan. God just woke me up in the spirit all of a sudden. I felt ashamed for all of my action. Before I went for service, I went to PlayGroup room to pass something to my friend. She told me 1 of my member grandma had a fall. Suddenly I have a feeling which I don't seem to be able to describe after so much had happen between me and her. I decided to sms her and was so relief her grandma was ok. At least I can have a peace of mind during service.During the 45mins interview with Dr Dyson, I was being taught a lesson. A lesson which I as a man should learn and thereby behave as 1. My recent behavior is totally unacceptable. God dealt with me seriously... on my way home I was thinking about this posting on how should I write. For the past week, I have been nasty and avoid towards a sister in my CG. It was my pride and some difficulties that is bothering me that cause me to behave that way. I must admit I did not think of her feeling at all. I only think of myself and my own interest.
I believe God sent Dr Dyson to teach me some basic and to wake me up. I am taught 1 very basic truth. I am a Christian. I also dun know why will I behave the way I behave for the past week. Avoiding an issue as thought it will disappear. As a Christian i should pray and seek guidance from God. - I repent from that. Secondly I am taught that both man and woman are equal in the eyes of God. She don't owned me anything. I should not give her the type of treatment I am giving. It was so nasty and out of sense. - I repent from that. Thirdly my word is my bond. I've told her before that no matter what happen I will be with her. We will be the best of friend. And look what i have done to disappoint her. I wrote a letter to her, everything was not according to how I act. My word is not my bond at all! - I repent from that. Fourthly the Bible got to be the empire when there is some argument which has to be resolve. Disagreement and problems was surfacing on us. I with my own thinking and mindset set the tone. It was terrible. I never try to read the Bible to seek for an solution to improve the situation but I add fire on it. I say something that does not mean my heart, I just want to make her feel sad and give up on me. I seek my own self and understanding to solve the problem. - I repent from that.
Lastly... God spoke to me a verse that sum it all.
1 Pet 3:8
7 Husbands(Man), likewise, dwell with them with understanding, giving honor to the wife(Woman), as to the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life, that your prayers may not be hindered.
I told God that was meant for married couple. But God told me for my context change it to liken a relationship between a man and a woman. When things happen I never try to understand her and always insert my opinion 1 first. I never really want to listen to her. All I want to hear was my view. Giving honor and respect of who she is. I never did that too. I was so bossy and difficult to communicate. The verse say giving honor to the wife as to the weaker vessel. That verse spoke to me a lot. A man should lead and minister to the woman not the other way round. I guess I should handle the problem in a more mature way which I know I could.
She is indeed unique. I know she has never give up on me. Like what she told me. We don't know what is the future ahead of us anything can happen as for now we ought to resume back our friendship just like the past. Dr Dyson confirm this. While we wait for Jesus to come back, we should do the work of God and continue living a normal life. While I wait for the future I should live normally and see God's hand work in my life. I felt so happy and relief. God took away a big rock that is hovering upon me that cause me to feel so "xin ku" for the past few days. I could not sleep at all. But I now I know I could.
Grace and Peace 7:36 PM