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Coincident, prophetic or unlucky??
Hai.. already morning I start off badly le (see my previous post) i end my day the same. It was a totally bad day for me. I am open to share what happen. I got scolded by KL for a conversation I had with a sister in de CG. Because I guess she sabo me so as to account to her leader ba. Well accountability is good. In my whole 5 years in church, I never sabo people when they did wrong things only people sabo me. That was amazing. Maybe I am too nice or stupid ba. Maybe I should account on what that person told me about people in the CG. Well... I don't intent to la although I am also quite disturb by her words.
The bible is so true.. death and life are in the power of the tongue. So be careful of what u say. I admit I say something disturbing to her through msn but every words I DID NOT mean anything. Maybe to her is sth ba. Many of you will feel shocked by my action. You dun even dare to think it was me who said all those stuff. Perhaps from today on, many of the people will change the way they look at me ba. I dun blame them. Is normal. Have u ever think why will I behave in such a manner? Issit I am just having fun or other issues that lead to this situation. I already very stress about many things and my spiritual life are not doing very well dis few weeks then now this happen. Perfect timing??
Thanks to those people who think I am spiritual and holy. Sorry to burst your bubble... I am not what you guys thought. According to my leader, he think I am living 2 kind of lives inside and outside church. He feels I can't flow together with his vision so until now I have not give any BS yet when those younger 1 are giving. I only can sit at the side and envy them. Perhaps nth to envy about cuz at the end of the day I am the 1 who need to change my attitude. It might be other factors that disable me to flow together with the rest?
Some people comment that I dun do what I preach. I just finish my 1st own sermon that i prepare. After this incident, I dun even have the face to share with any1... hai.... is not going to be the same again. If she knows I am dis kind of person, what would she think of me? My 3rd wish fades away gradually....